I’ve been thinking this over for a really long time now and I’ve finally decided that I want to remake this blog and start over.
It’s just that I’ve been doing nothing but reblogging strictly fandom stuff for six years now and it’s starting to get a little tiring. I’ve spent an entire year on Twitter and I’ve realized that I’ve been needing to express myself outside of just the tv shows I like. My new blog will still have fandom content, but now it’ll include so much more.
The best part is you can access my twitter through my new account, so you can all get to see me get all personal and speak my mind more often.
Lars and Steven’s hug seems so desperate if you’re watching Steven. Maybe it’s just me personally connecting to Steven (because big oof) but there’s something so sad and miserable about seeing this kid so torn up when he used to be so optimistic and happy.
He’s trying so hard, but he’s so young and so lost. He spent so much time righting all these wrongs that he’s missed his friends’ lives, his life, moving on. He claims the first thing he did to grow was change, but change you’re not ready for or not ready to accept can be so terrifying.
Steven doesn’t want to be needy, and he hates that he is. Except he’s become so dependent on being needed for something that it’s become a part of his identity. Without the gems needing him and him coming to the idea that he isn’t suitable to run Little Home School, Steven has to come to terms with the fact that he’s having an identity crisis, or lack of identity.
He knows he has issues, and he’s trying in his own way to fix them. But he’s so stuck in his own head that he can’t see how much he’s actually struggling, even though other people can.
This is just a cartoon but it’s so realistic it hurts, because this is something that happens all the time.
I just want Steven, for once, to actually be happy and okay in his life.
We all want that for Steven, and I know he’ll get there one day, but you are right. It hurts because it feels so real.
She/Her| Ravenclaw | ISTJ | Canadian | Gemini | Asexual | Autistic | An aspiring writer who really likes Pearl way too fucking much. Strictly a fandom blog, but I might post something personal every now and then. I really like cartoons.
